Mother's Day, Not Having Children

Sometimes, I have a pout moment not having my own children but not this time. Thank God! Mother's Day can trigger that for some of us that wanted children and did not have them. Especially, when we know we would be awesome parents. Oh, and yes, remember I appreciate being like a mother to so many but remember it is not the same. This weekend my focus was having a good time. I attending Aunt's Sarah's Girl about a play with ladies who experienced different forms of trauma but was still able to move on in life. Aunt Sarah, took them in to care for them the best she knew how even though her way was not always right in their eyes. I was treated by my sis for a long overdue massage. My hubby and I spent the night with my parents and went to a Mother's Day Prayer Breakfast and stayed to their church service. I tried to surprise my 88 year old great aunt by visiting her. We got there only to find out she was not there because her great granddaughter and great great grandson came to pick her up to spend some time outside the facility with her. Hubby and I picked up some food and went back to my mom's house and spent a little more time with them before going back home. YOU MAY WONDER WHY I AM TELLING YOU ALL OF THIS. I did not do all of this to stay busy. I am content with being home. I am telling you this because I allowed myself to enjoy my weekend. IN THE MIDST OF ENJOYING MY WEEKEND, I DID NOT HAVE REMORSE or a moment of pouting! THE ENJOYMENT OF "ENJOYING THE PRESENT MOMENT" WITH OTHERS AND ALLOWING MY SIS TO TREAT ME AS A APPRECIATION TO WHAT I WAS AND WHAT MY HUBBY WAS TO HER CHILDREN, allowed me to have peace all weekend. Triggers come! Whenever, THEY COME, DON'T STAY there and WHENEVER triggers don't come to surface, be grateful. I am grateful! #iamrenovatedwithin

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